James 4:13 – 15
Now listen,you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for little while and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.”I have not said much here on LJ for a while. Like many, I have been pre-occupied by what is going on in the financial markets, and how they could directly affect my life, but commenting would have been an exercise in casting my personal fears in a more concrete form than that of a hopefully fleeting thought. My HOPE must be in the Lord, and bemoaning and stating my worries for my personal future in a public forum does not bring glory to Him.
Life has been good and exciting for us. Yes, our retirement finances looked kinda murky, even two years ago, but we could see how the Lord might be moving. This year my daughter finishes college, with no currently outstanding loans (we will have to borrow about half of what she will need to finish up her final semester, but that is tiny compared to the loans that so many parents and students carry.) She is getting married in June 2010. She is our only child and we want to do her wedding up right. And to do that we will have to borrow against our home equity. Just a small percentage of our home equity, but still, money that will have to be paid back. And I had this dream of being able to be well on the way to paying it back, and saving enough to “double-date” at Disney World with Abbie and Alex sometime after they get married and before they start a family. I would love to be able to treat them and do it up the same way we did when we went for Spring Break three years ago. And of course, Bill was going the start seminary, and there is our work with Tanzania. (Bill had already determined that seminary should wait for at least a year, do to time commitments else where.) All of this assumed that, or course, I would have a job. My very nicely high-paying job.
So I really didn't want to listen when the Lord kept bringing the James 4:13 verse to mind over the last two months. Every time I get too comfortable with my life, God seems to want to shake it up.
Then the last three weeks occurred in the financial world. I am not going to name-names or get specific here, but anyone who has been keeping track of the financial news will be able to figure out the players involved.
Rumors were flying all through last weekend. Then Monday we learned, via “Breaking News” on CNBC, rather than via a company memo, that the Financial institution for which I work was divesting its banking business to a gigantic NY-based financial institution. I have been sold twice before and each time God has seen fit to let me continue working. I do usually try to have some plan for what I would do should I loose my job (last time I thought about writing young-adult novels), but those “backup” plans have not been needed.
Fact is, when one financial institution buys another financial institution, part of what they are buying is the people. Not everyone loses their job. On the other hand, a lot of people do lose their jobs. And it takes a while for the institutions to merge systems. So it wasn't like I am going to be out of work next month, should I be one of those many folks who will be made redundant. Instead, I can look forward to a minimum of a year of two of integration activities plus I should also be on the receiving side of a “lovely parting gift” of a year-plus's salary. But what do I do after that? It's one thing to look with excitement on an unknown future twelve years in the future. It's another when it's “staring you in the face.”
Thursday, I prayed that the Lord would give me a vision. Help me find my “backup” plan, my next passion, in this situation. And Lord work a miracle. All is in Your hands.
So Friday morning, my husband is checking the news online to see if there is anything interesting on the vice-presidential debate (we were flying to Denver while it was being broadcast), and the head line reads that a large California-based financial institution is buying all of my large NC-based financial institution instead of the NY-based institution. Immediately a huge weight felt as if it was being lifted from my shoulders, as if by the hand of God. Nothing is certain. But the California based bank uses the same software for which I am a niche specialist. Maybe... I have done this twice before... I prayed for a miracle. I never thought that the miracle might possibly involve “non-buyers remorse” and a potential different suitor.
Yesterday we saw the lovely daughter of some of our best friends marry her best friend from High School. So funny to see how a friends-only boy-girl relationship begun on one side of the country can grow to love and then marriage in an entirely different part of the country. The ceremony and reception were lovely, and so much Margaret's style. It was to great to see Margaret and her brother Paul again. We have not seen either of them since the Asheys moved to Houston. So great to see the entire Ashey clan again.
Sitting in the Denver airport to fly back east to home. Checking the news, I see that the large NY-based financial institution has gotten a temporary restraining order to block the sale to the large CA-based institution. Nothing is certain. Lord let your hand rule in this.